it's a raining monday...

yup..it's cold here...still cold after a cup of tea and choco chiffon cake. It's my "default" breakfast for almost 2 weeks now. Funny, i could eat the same food over and over again, buy some stuffs in every color with the same label. not that it bothers me, I just noticed it. I have this "default" mode...

..what I have been thinking lately, I'm so engrossed in looking over at some stuffs lately. Like laptops, smart phones and the watch that I have dying to have. I mean, I could get one immediately but something is stopping me from buying. Like I saw this HP laptop on sale last saturday at Vivo City, and I didn't buy it. And I always have this tendency to ask for people's opinion on what to buy. Really weird! well..it's just me. All the while I though I am an impulsive buyer. I was wrong! hehehe..not that I can distinguish what's a need or a want. hay so confusing! sabi nga ni Jane, ...buy it, u deserve it! whoa! maybe after payday I'm gonna get something.

..My eyebugs is flopping out of my face! slept at 2:30am, randy called me at past 1 and he got pissed over at something, i turned my mobile off then, i have no time for those things, not now.Actually, It started last friday, had this migrane. it went on until saturday, not to mention that Randy called me at 3:30 and 4:00am..telling how much he misses me. my reaction: DUH!? it's alright to miss someone, it's normal, he's mg boyfriend right?! but 3:30AM...??? right after his poker game, insane! others might find it sweet but not for me. I don't know why I am like this. so cold..so...I don't know. At times, I just wanted to be left alone. There are even days that I don't hold my phone nor text anyone. At times, I'm already contented in working, watching Tv and sleep. that's another "default"...I love him, yes. but right now..I'm not in-love with him. It's the hard truth.

..Last week, I'm so busy with work. I like it that way, so many con-calls ( my hands are so called after these con-calls...I could die! just figuring out what call-in number to give! hahahaha :-) so many meetings. btw, ragh invited me for dinner. I decline for 2 times and he won last wednesday. It turned out not to be a drink, not a dinner. It was ok and awkward. The next thing I know he's inviting me out again for a dinner at Clarky in this iced bar..and the next thing is...he telling to get a life and go out on movies over the weekend. Is my boss actually asking me out for a movie????!!!! I don't want to think nor to conclude. It's just his way to make me feel comfortable with him.

...What a monday in SG!